Mindscape

You know sometimes your mind wanders and you think of all the things that could have been, that should have been, that would have been and sometimes your mind breaks out of the retrospective reverie to think of things that shall come in the future.
The future....mysterious...elusive and so appealing to the curious human mind. Many prophecise, many listen, many question. The future has always been an enigma with mankind. The future has never failed to grasp my imagination. I sometimes ponder over the events that are yet to happen. And I must admit, although I am not proud of it, I believe in astrology...yes , in this modern day and age, astrology still has that retro appeal to it.Or it does in my case. And I've been fortunate enough to be born on a date that specifically doesnt subscribe to any zodiac sign. July 22. This makes me a cancer - leo cusp. And since I am very crabby, I have a proclivity to consider myself a Cancerian.

So as I was saying, I've had a sort of inexplicable fascination with the future...(my past and present are nothing great to talk about!). I often wonder what I would be doing , say after 7 years, I often picture myself as successful, happily married with a beautiful wife and a career which takes me places. But I know things dont often work out the way you plan it too.

Most often I picture something in a relative sense. Who would captain India this time after 3 years for instance, and I envision myself at that time too. The more often I think about the future, however, the more it reminds me of my present and what I need to work on to get anywhere near what I envisioned. That more than anything else keeps me going , striving for greater pinnacles because I already know what the flipside is...It's a reality I am all too familiar with.