Goodbye/Alvida/Ciao

Tomorrow is my last day here. Tomorrow I bid adieu to the place that gave so much to me. Tomorrow I embark upon a new journey, an adventure if u may. Tomorrow I leave.

This place gave me so much memories. Some I'll cherish for life. I made friends here. I also made enemies. I've met people who call a spade , a spade. I've met people who backstab you every chance they get. I've fallen in love a dozen times over. I've fallen out of love even more. I've waged many battles here. I've won some, lost some. But this place taught me to love, to stand up, to fight and to cherish. Bidding adieu to my home is emotionally very hard. But its a decision I am bound to make sooner rather than later. To all the people and all the friends I made here, you'll all remain close to my heart....thanx for helping me up when I've felt like collapsing down. Thanks for changing me for the better or worse. But most of all, thanks for the memories.....Alvida

Mindscape

You know sometimes your mind wanders and you think of all the things that could have been, that should have been, that would have been and sometimes your mind breaks out of the retrospective reverie to think of things that shall come in the future.
The future....mysterious...elusive and so appealing to the curious human mind. Many prophecise, many listen, many question. The future has always been an enigma with mankind. The future has never failed to grasp my imagination. I sometimes ponder over the events that are yet to happen. And I must admit, although I am not proud of it, I believe in astrology...yes , in this modern day and age, astrology still has that retro appeal to it.Or it does in my case. And I've been fortunate enough to be born on a date that specifically doesnt subscribe to any zodiac sign. July 22. This makes me a cancer - leo cusp. And since I am very crabby, I have a proclivity to consider myself a Cancerian.

So as I was saying, I've had a sort of inexplicable fascination with the future...(my past and present are nothing great to talk about!). I often wonder what I would be doing , say after 7 years, I often picture myself as successful, happily married with a beautiful wife and a career which takes me places. But I know things dont often work out the way you plan it too.

Most often I picture something in a relative sense. Who would captain India this time after 3 years for instance, and I envision myself at that time too. The more often I think about the future, however, the more it reminds me of my present and what I need to work on to get anywhere near what I envisioned. That more than anything else keeps me going , striving for greater pinnacles because I already know what the flipside is...It's a reality I am all too familiar with.

A tribute to B.O.B.Y

Since I am leaving for gujarat in a week's time...I knew tat it would be impossible to meet them all and bid adieus...so i thought it better to do something fun, and came up with a video..a tribute to the class that changed me( the guys tat changed me) and gave me evrything....(P.S we still havent figured out y we named it B.O.B.Y - Biology and Biology only!!..)... So here it is..To the guys and gals of B.O.B.Y

Fun???!...What does that even mean?????

Lately in my life, dementors are running havoc.....get the drift???...I can't get no satisfaction!! ( Now y does that sound vaguely familiar???)..Anyways, nowadays everything I do is lacking that 'thing' if u'd like to call it... I aint having no fun. I thought the cousins coming over would help...evidently not!!..But hey, it leaves me with more time to blog..:-)..no even that doesnt work....and why does modern porn suck so bad??? ...But well, I am still orkutting...strong on that front ( Go Orkut!)...
Meeting new ppl has brightened me up...just last day i met a guy who's gonna be in ma coll. who loves led zep!!! Ain't that wonderful?? They dont make guys like me and him anymore...or do they???? WELL THAT'S IT IM TOTALLY SCREWED UP....CYA LIFE!!

Cousins for company

Yesterday my cousins arrived from Seattle. Well they haven't changed much coz the last time they visited was barely a year ago. Everytime they come around we have a blast!!! Hope that happens this time around too....and i pray that me turning 18 recently wud'nt make me feel awkward with them who are, lets just say, kinda part of another generation...Coz they r gonna be the only fun I'll be having for quite some time...

Ashes to ashes .....dust to dust...

To hell with my shitty , candy flossed love stories.....I am done with all that crap....im taking life as it comes and facing it like a man from now on...

Now let me tell you about the incident that brought about this change in my outlook( if u know me it's an earth-shattering epoch-making change...hell yeah!!! )..... Yesterday was VOX POPULI - 2007 conducted by us, the OLD STUDENTS ASSOCIATION of VIDYODAYA. It was one helluva an event...I tell you , it was ROCKING!!!... But what was even more wonderful was all that happened after it was over.... Our Principal (i've never thought of her with so much respect!) actually congratulated us for, what she described, as the best VOX ever....( And here we were thinking she was sanguivorous cannibal!!!) The emotions just overflowed like an ebbing sea from then on....And for the first time in a long time, ...we cried! The entire reality that we just managed our last event together, had barely managed to sink in, that our tear glands were doing overtime....

Then I realised, there's more to life than mushy puppy love....there are other things worth living for, fighting for......They say experiences make a man...and if that's true...Im well on my way to being one!!!!

my first moblog

well with my exams finally over .. i now have time on my hands to restart my blogging and what better way to do it than from my new mobile . yup my first moblog as i'd like 2 call it. and as far as my love life goes it still stinks

A dysfunctional family...mine...

My mom's gone beserk............today was the second day in arow when she lost it.........Me and my bro where playing soccer out in the yard whent the ball bounced off the turf and hit one of the windows...but nuthin happened to the window....and all of a sudden my mom comes out screaming at the top of her lungs and banging her head... And before we knew it we were shouting at each other with the neighbours clearly listening in......I cant understand her...its beyond my level of comprehension...why should she be screaming for absolutely no reason...yes we had our fights before, but nuthin close to wut happened today...I had no idea this was comin.....I really dont need this right now...

Phew! That was a breeze...

Today i had the last of my board practicals...it was dreaded chemistry...but it went without a hitch.....the other practicals were equally easy.....Now that's done, I can finally get back to blogging......So... U remember the girl I was talking bout,...I mean the one i really am into....Well I think I've fallen for her....She's been supporting me all through my exams and I want her to support me for the rest of my life and I wanna show her my love .......I just might reveal my feelings on Valentine's...........But that is if i dont get cold feet...'coz this gives me some serious nerves.....First I think I'd tell my friends bout her and see how they think coz they've been an integral part of my life now and have helped me past my previous heartaches......

Parents...

What is it with parents and expectations?...One instant they r laughing at some joke u make and the next instant they become so disappointed in u that u get the feeling u r the joke.....I dunno man, my mom keeps frowning at me everytime I play my ps2, listen to my iPod or read a novel coz she expects me to be studying all the time....I know I am satisfied with my study schedule and timings but why the hell is she not........Nowadays all i see her doin is frown.......Its time I ignored her and stop worrying bout this and get on wid my life....

Shilpa needs a life

U know wut the say bout the curious cat right? Well, Shilpa went fishing in the UK and got put down bad ...real bad....She went there hoping to get noticed and butter up some producers and well she got more than just get noticed.......Make no mistake I am totally against racism and I am proud of my country....but Shilpa Shetty doesnt represent Indianness ....she is not ,in the true sense of the word, an Indian 'nari'....She doesnt have the will or the wit to stand up and slug it out.....When some one-off domineering 'celebrity' named Jane Goody asks her to go back to the slums. she should have had the guts to say "yeah? well up yours!!" ....I mean , the modern day Indian woman is supposed to be strong and staunch....And after she retracted her statement about being racially abused for god-knows-what- reason, I lost all respect for her as an individual, as an Indian......Yes racism has always been an issue with Indians in the UK, but no self respecting woman,let alone Indian, would backtrack like she just did........And I think its a big charade with the Indian govt. getting involved, they've got more important problems than helping an all too beauty conscious starlet who breaks down in a reality tv show....face it thats what reality tv is all about....I think Shilpa should grow up and fight or just back out and stop wasting our time....Now I dont even care if she goes on to win...coz in my eyes she's got no self respect....U can't blame the show ....but U can blame the casting director who obviously didnt do his homework....!

Well at last something went well...

Yesterday was my bio pract. exam....had my fingers crossed ......and thank God it went well...I even managed to prepare a decent slide.....last time i broke down 'coz i couldnt take an epidermal peeling properly....but that didnt happen this time around....now all my exams are over and all I have remaining is the Boards....now I have my study hols.....hopefully I would sit down and study instead of thinking of girls.....my posts my start becoming less frequent...but hopefully I would keep u up to date on my life in which nuthin's really happening......

Chemistry ain't my style

Hey there ppl,
I had my chem practical exam today.....and i sucked real bad....might have been my worst ever.....When I entered the lab and saw the grinning face of my teacher, all that i prepared went out the window for good......My titrating expt. was messy, first I forgot to add a reagent, then i drop the fractional weights i borrowed from someone else and they scattered all over the floor...u know how small those things are......I was all nerves and weak in the knees.....Then my salt analysis went completely disastrously ....On top of that I got hammered for the viva.....and I came off with a measly 19 out of a possible 30 (yes that is measly)........now i have my bio practicals tomorrow....hope the microscopes dont give me trouble........But the day ended for me on a positive note.....I saw the australian open match b/w baghdatis and and gael i-forgot-his-last-name.....and the latter put on an amazing show and beat the odds despite an injury.....proving that if u want something badly the whole universe conspires in your favour....hope i can pull off a miracle tomorrow...wish me luck

Ash and abishek huh?

Well the news is out AB's baby and Aishwarya Rai are engaged.The whole history of their romance sounds quite filmy....I mean, falling in love while shooting , getting engaged after a premiere..... . Being a hopelessly romantic teenager, I've always pictured falling in love and how mine would be a fairytale relationship...but my last girlfriend brought me down to earth...let's just say it didnt work out very well with my parents finding out...and i was insecure all the time....a recipe for disaster...!
But somehow i miss being in her company...u can say i am a little naive........but hey thats the way i am....but i am over all of that...i mean the mushy stuff. But I've got some1 else in my life, some1 who is a sharp contrast with my ex. She cares a lot bout me, and i've fallen for her. Everyday i wait for her messages with angst. I know she cares about me...but she's got no idea about my feelings for her...she's so sweet....but there's some part of my brain which shouts out loud that I miss my ex.....God my life is sounding more filmy each passing day...it's now like a love triangle ...but the problem is I dont know if any of them have feelings for me...God, I am all screwed up....My train of thought led me from the ash abshishek engagement to my stinking love life.......This is y I always maintain that news channels should keep such issues low key or many more dumb idiots like me across the country would have this same stinking train of thought as mine....
Wut the hell? I've got my xam 2mrw and all i can think about is this girl i care about...i hope its worth it...coz i plan to tell this to her the moment i get the chance...or do u guys think i shouldnt and play the waiting game....and wut is the issue with my ex....I need some feedback people!

My first post...not sure wut to post

Hey ppl,
My name is Jayanth and I am from Cochin , India...well, actually a suburb called Aluva. Its a typical storybook small town minus the friendly neighbours. Well, life here has startes to drag ever since I've turned 17 and that was a year ago. Maybe its because I feel like a caged bird with no outlet for my emotions. The only time I am me is when i am with my friends..oh, by the way I go to a pretty big school and this is our last year being in 12th and stuff....i am gonna miss my friends terribly.
But all I do at home is watch reality tv and listening to my ipod...i tried to learn the guitar to pass the time but thats put on hold; my xams are near...I am your typical confused kid in a state of transition...maybe thats y i am a misfit at home....